jobless and fat

so i went on spring break lost no wieght things to the witch inlaw who cooks crap in fat and puts up the treadmill. There is nothing to do there. I asked about trails and was given some half ass meal mouthed bs about not there can go if you find them blah blah blah.

Then the Shack shut down, so gone are my plans for a trainer, haircut, etc. No pressure washing and sealed playset. I will have to do all the touch ups myself, the outdoor stuff myself, the hair, etc. And I am going to attempt to install crown molding and floors.

BADBADBADBADBECKYE

yes, I have spent the past 2 weeks since camping out on a smelly naval ship trying to breathe. I haven't worked out much because I had an Upper Respitory Infection. So I am just now finishing my steriods and antibiotics. Fun times let me tell ya.

On top of that my bosses held a little company meeting when I was sick and told everyone I mean well but basically suck. Yep, I can't do my job well but they feel sorry for me and want me around cause they like me. PFFFTT, it is cause I don't lie, cheat, steal and I actually do this thing called work. It has been over a week and no one I mean no one from management has talked to me personally about my faults and how to improve. Of course I walked out with over 30% tips last night so what can they say? The truth is I do my job, I clean up after my tables, I do all the sidework and have been pulling up the slack for others. Don't wanna wait on that table- get Beckye. OOPSIE forgto a table or wanna get stoned on the clock, Beckye cn pick it up. Or better yet, doing their job when I wasn't even waiting tables and then got reported for being a crappy server. Um, hello- I was doing togos and getting ready to leave when the manager you hired and loooooove so much was texting her latest baby daddy's girlfriend and flriting with the beer guy. I wasn't even on the floor. I got ZERO tips because I was doing grunt work like cleaning the windows or your bathrooms or wiping menus or cleaning off crap. WHO IS AT FAULT AGAIN?

I eventually will end up walking out on the slackers who trashed me to build themselves up. When I do it won't be pretty and I won't be lying about why I am working at the joint down the street. Hate it for ya.

Ha!

So it turns out I have Bronchitis. Friday night at work I had to hit the inhaler repeatedly. Saturday I couldn't breathe and had gone through boxes of Kleenex. the house looks a mess. Nothing has been done. I can't walk across the room without hacking up a lung.

Bad week

I am cold cranky sleepy and out of sorts. I just wanna curl up and sleep. I think I have a cold or sinus infection plus I am really depressed this week. I only lost 3.6 and missed my goal by .4. I have to email taxes off and pray we get a refund. Work is well work and I am fed up there also.

ARGGGGG!

So the four star hotel with fitness gym pass was a flop- they closed the gym so sorry. The child was afraid he would miss the trolley or some scout event and wouldn't spend time at the market until today - nothing opens on Sunday until after noon. We were up at 6:15 am, lets just say I don't think the Navy is for me. The food last night was bad-really over cooked pasta, ice cream, bread, lays, blah blah blah. I paid $4 for vegetable soup and a pretzel. At least I finally got my crab,grits and southern goodies for breakfast. By 7 am, even the kid was fed up with naval life. I did get a cookbook- The Charleston Jr Leagues Charleston Receipts (recipes in today talk) from 1950. I did walk and walk and walk and walk. And carry stuff all over the ship. I weighed at home after 5 and about the same. I am hoping to do some hardcore workouts the next 4 days. Need to drop 4 lbs.

Why?

From Wiki:
Catharsis (Ancient Greek: Κάθαρσις) is a Greek word meaning "cleansing", "purging", "cleansing" or "clarification." It is derived from the infinitive verb of Ancient Greek: καθαίρειν transliterated as kathairein "to purify, purge," and adjective Ancient Greek: καθαρός katharos "pure or clean."

Last year I was diagnosed as Bi-Polar. I have been on medication since the summer. It was a long time coming but it explained many issues I have had in dealing with stress, weight, spending, etc. Then in January, my husband informed me that his company had a new policy- they would pay for part of your gym membership and for you to join a weight loss group if you were obese. I joined Weight Watchers the next day and here I am.

I am only 7 weeks in and have dropped over 25 lbs. I have started eating differently, exercising regularly, and changing mentally how I view life. I am hoping to lose over 100lbs in 2010, reduce my debt by half, and have a tummy tuck in 2011.